Ode to piss off asshole.

I've been lying in bed for the past hour desperatly trying to sleep since I get up at 6:30 tomorrow and work 9 hours. Instead of sleep, I've been tossing and turning raging in my mind against the world. I suppose it started as just general pissed-offed-ness, at things in general, mostly Emma (for absolutly no reason other than he was in my head for no reason again) and my manager (for very good reason). It soon focused into very specific anger at my manager. I tried thinking of something else but all that was going through my mind was what I'd tell her if I were to ever tell her off, or what I'd say in complaint about her to my boss. So here I am, getting rid of it so that I can FUCKING SLEEP ALREADY.

The woman pisses me off. When she isnt in face eating mode (which is rare), she's a very cool person. A little snobby, but in a funny way. But for the past week, every word out of her mouth to the floor staff has been angry and unprofessional. Here's the kicker, she's basement manager and yet she feels the need to tell floor staff off at every opportunity. I understand she has a tough and demanding job, I'd even concede that she has the hardest job at the store. I don't know if she does or not, but I'd be willing to believe it for agruments sake. I understand that she's stressed. But I'd be a hell of a lot more sympathetic if she wasnt constantly insinuating (and often outright saying it) that all we do is make her job harder and that we're wasting time. She angrily tells us off for stuff that we either didn't even do or had absolutly no control over and then storms off before we can even anwser. Honnestly, she makes it sound like all I do is stand there and stare at the wall. Well actually Judy, no, I couldnt put that away, I've been glued to the cash register for two hours straight, but thanks for understanding! At first I'd just ignore her, figuring she was just letting off some steam. But now that practically every word out of her mouth is disrespectful and unjustified, I'm finding it hard to hold my tongue. It helps that she usually does this in front of customers. She may be comfortable with making an ass of herself in front of strangers, but I'm going to go ahead and pretend that this is a place of business requiring a minimum of proffesionality. But today I found myself slipping once or twice. A few times I snapped back when normally I would have just ignored her. If I have to go through 11 straight days of this, I will tell her off. It's not even a possibility, it's going to happen.

What pisses me off is that the floor manager, the one who's ACTUALLY in charge of the store as a whole, seems to just let it go. I don't know if she's talked to her or not but if she has it's obviously not working. Seriously, if it's the same way tomorrow I'm going to talk to her, the floor manager that is. I'll tell her that if she doesnt tone it down I won't make it through the week, and then I don't fucking care HOW unprofessional it is to tell off your manager (although I'd never do it in front of customers). I wouldnt be surprised if someone else beat me to it either. Honnestly, christmas in retail is hard enough without her going off on us whenever things don't go her way.

hmm... I THINK I've gotten that out of my system now... Bloody hell... I'm only going to get like 6 hours of sleep. Again.

I really feel the need to either punch or makeout with someone. While drunk.

sigh, and I really wanted my next post to be cheerful.
Christ...