L is for loner.

David and I's one year anniversary passed by quietly about a month ago. We're happy, in love and I think we've built a solid relationship. This summer it seemed that I spent so little time at home that our living situation never really sunk in. Now that I'm back in school and David's working full time, I feel that I've had a taste of "real life" living together. I haven't regretting moving in together even for a second especially since I don't think our schedules could be any less synched (ie- Im in bed 2 hours before he even gets home and I'm out of the house at least 4 hours before he wakes up). Basically we've learned to make the most of the few hours every few days were our paths cross (you think I'm exagerating don't you....).

Anyways, all this means that I basically have the apartment to myself in the evennings. This is brand new. Never in my life have I ever had this much alone time. Turns out Im not terrible at organizing myself when it comes to school, but without people around I have no personal restraint. I eat terribly and spend money irresponsibly. Im messy and lazy. It's also really easy for me to become a complete shut in. It's something I fall into naturally and comfortably. If it weren't for work I don't think I'd talk to anyone on a regular basis other than David and whats worse it wouldn't really bother me. I miss Viki for that reason (yeah, you. You're sitting in Halifax right now feeling all smug because you got personal mention. Don't let it get to your head). No other person has consistantly poked and prodded me (some might say incessantly...) into becoming a more open and sociable person. Even now, she's the one calling me (I know, I know... I should call you. IM SORRY) So now, without someone to force me out of the house, I find myself uninterested in making the first step to socialize.

I can't help it. If I find myself with a night off with no homework, my first impulse is to go read at a bar with a pint. Or pick up sushi (delicious, delicious sushi... [re: irresponsible spending]) and watch a movie in bed. With beer. Or go see a movie alone. I love spending time with my friends, but unless someone else goes through the trouble or organizing it, I'm just as happy to spend time alone.

So there. If anyone ever wonders why I don't call them, this is why. I'm too busy being a loser.