of many a thing...

msn is stupid. i keep signing out then it logs me in again . i dont get it. so when i get back to my computer, i have many messages of irrate people thinking i am ignoring them when IN FACT, msn is insane or someone in my household is randomly going around signing me in. quite frankly i dont think anyone cares enough to do that.

as for the last post that got erased, i sumed it up to someone on msn, so here is the abreviated version:

i learnt something about someone i'm pretty close to recebtly. she was telling me about all the things she's done drunk or high and the jokes she has with her friends. you know, the kind of things you would never want to know about this person you've known since birth basically. anyways, i always suspected it, especially after this summer, but i never really KNEW how much she'd done. i never really thought i would want to know. but after we talked for awhile and she told me all about it, it really didnt matter. i mean, she's still
the same person i've know for as long as i can remember. this doesnt change anything.

Then i went on a shpeel about people who dont do drugs for personal reasons but claim they dont mind when other people do it. i always found that most of the time, these people do actually think less of drug users (i'm not talking about heavy use, just once and a while) personaly, i think basing your opinion on casual drug use is a bad judge of character. it doesnt change the part of the person that really matters. it doesnt make them less of a good person, just the type of person who enjoys a different type of experience. it goes both ways. a person cant look down on someone because they dont do drugs.

then i was talking about how last year my marks were usually up in the 80s and stuff like 70s werent all that great. now, 70s is the stuff i get on a GOOD day... and if you would have asked me last year, the idea of that would have seemed horrible, but now i'm just accepting it. i know i shouldnt, and that i should probably try and work harder and bring my marks up but... i just lack the
motivation. i'll just settle with not hating myself for having lower marks. now i know how people would feel when i would gripe over a 78.
aaaaand.... that was about the jist of it. there was more in it, but i cant remember.


you know, during my philosophy exam i wastd about 30 minutes today drawing in the margin. DURING THE FREAKIN EXAM. someone shoot me now, i have the attention span of peanut.