oh terrible of terribles...

Caffeine, you devillish minx... It is now approching 3 am and Im not tired and all I have to show for it is an upset stomach. When will I learn?

I told someone today that I don't get angry very often, I could probably count the amount of times Ive been actually angry this year, an two thirds of those times were tonight. This is an exageration, but not by much.

I dont like yelling at people, it makes me feel guilty afterwards. But I had fun once the insanity moved away from my house.

Despite my frustration at some parts of the night, the chaos was what I needed. The night ended on a rather pleasant note too. I am satisfied with my friday night after a rather unsatisfying week.

I need a job. If nothing else but to stop having to mooch. I miss not feeling guilty for not paying my share of the gas, or for letting people buy me a coffee. I want to be self sufficient again. I want to stop being poor.

Im going to go attempt sleep... considering the state of my stomach I dont have high hopes...