To sleep or to write...

See... I know I should stay up another hour and keep writing but... I just no longer have anything to say or the will to work in anymore pointless quotes that Im putting in just because he said I had to. Really.. to me it just completly undermines the point of my essay. Or the point of me writing an essay.

And this is the other reason I don't want to write anymore, after a certain point during the day, what I write stops making sense. Still, a rational part of me says that something is better than nothing. But a slightly less rational but still deviously clever part of me argues that I really could use the sleep. But this is countered by the regretfully honnest part of me which knows that I probably wont sleep because I just had a cup of tea (and the tea seeped for like 12 hours too...) and I know that significant progress on this essay will be well worth the lost hour or so of sleep.

All this to say that essays suck and I suck at writing them.


My mother gave me guff for not starting all this work sooner. I pointed out that Id been working like mad. She countered that that has been only for the past few weeks. I felt the need to point out that in those past few weeks ive worked harder and accomplished more than I have ever before. But she would just point out that thats what the "real world" is all about so I held my tongue. It would be nice to just once hear about how proud she is that Im working so hard to get all this stuff done. But you know... that wouldnt contribute to the shaping of my character as a hardworking member of society. I must get used to underapreaciation in the workforce.

Bah. Either way, I can't complain. My mom actually has alot to do with whatever success I've managed to scrape together. She is ultimatly the person whose advice I trust the most since its always put in a way that just makes everything seem so obvious. Of course this is in most matters. There are still some I would never broach with her and thats just fine with me. Just as there are things that I don't ask for advice on but I still get plenty of. Thats when I usually don't listen.

Either way, not Im just trying really hard to waste time. I should try and poop out a conclusion of sorts... or work in my secondary source. damn secondary source...