Voodoo dancing makes my week.

Today isnt really a day off but its close enough. I start at 4. Only five hours of work. Definatly tolerable.
Today will be my tenth day of work in a row. It's funny how fast you fall into a mindless routine. I now get how people get sucked into working dead end jobs their entire life. I'm very glad I made plans for my next year BEFORE summer started...

I know that work right now is what is keeping me grounded. I think I would be in a different frame of mind if it werent for the fact that I'm so busy. Not a good frame of mind either. I'm just going to come out and say it, regardless of how stupid I feel about it... I crave romance.

... Damn, I still feel stupid about it... But let me explain.

I crave that first week... When every touch is a thrill. when you dont want to see them everyday because that would ruin it. I don't want a relationship right now. EVen if it WERE possible. I don't want to have a one night stand. I want that midnight walk with the flirting and the insinuations but nothing more physical than the goodnight kiss. Okay, maybe a prolonged goodnight kiss.

Sigh.. I feel like a loser for that too. I am an independent person. I do not need others for self affirmation. Rah rah rah. I am a dinosaur. Hear me roar. *roars*

In other news I went dancing to swing in a park last night. It made me realise that I need more dancing in my life. And Big Bad voodoo Daddy.... Need more of that too. Very few things are as much fun as dancing to really loud, really good music.


Fuck... I have about a weeks worth of stuff to do around the house in 2 hours...

*roars*