Or something

So... what's new. I'll break it down for all of you so that we don't have to do anything drastic like actually communicate.

Will be graduating shortly - Considering how I don't seem to feel much of anything about this I'm going to assume it hasn't properly sunk in. It feels like I'm just done for the summer but will be back in a few months. Also, I'm not exactly going out with a bang. No one seems to want to show my work, despite the fact that I don't think it sucks.

Job - Will soon be done with the restaurant/cafe job and be replacing it with a gallery/studio assistant job. I'm living the dream. Or something. No, really, I'm excited. It's partly sales (which means commission!) and partly everything else (like building canvases, varnishing, shipping, framing, hanging, sweeping floors...). I've only worked a couple days so I'm really anxious to get started full time so I can get a better handle on things.

Studio! - Yesterday I paid my first month rent on a shared, shared studio space. Essentially, it's someone elses studio space in a shared studio which she will be letting me use 3 ish days a week. Pros - hella cheap and two blocks away. Cons - must share. I'm looking forward to one day being able to spread out and work without feeling self conscious but the truth is I just can't afford it right now. In the mean time, I will settle with a nice corner in a nice studio.

Exercise - like every other physical endeavor I've picked up in the last 3 years, I've sort of given up on Yoga and Systema. Mostly because they just don't fit in my schedule anymore. But partly because I just don't want to. HOWEVER! in an effort to justify spending money on a studio space, I've decided to not buy a bus pass this summer and just bike. I started this week. I'm REALLY out of shape so it isn't exactly "fun" right now, but I am confident that I'll get better.

Grad school - Just kidding, nothing decided there. In a year or two maybe. Actually, no, the only thing I've resolved is that I'm definitely not going to grad school in New York. I'll admit, I had daydreams after my trip in February but I also have to admit that 50,000$ won't appear out of thin air. I'll just look elsewhere.

So I'm basically settling into a nice relaxed summer in montreal (my first!) with work I might potentially actually like, a bit of painting and lots of biking. I predict sun, beers on patios, a garden in my back yard, BBQs, lots of reading.... and so on...

Next fall is really hazy. No idea what's going on then. Sort of depends on David who also doesn't know what will happen.

You know, I've been feeling sort of low lately. Dissatisfied and unhappy about everything despite rationally knowing that by all appearances things were going pretty good for me right now. I feel better after writing this out. Last night I went to paint (my final crit is on wednesday! (shit!!!)) and simply could not bring myself to do it. But I think today will be better... Well, it's already 1pm but I have nothing else planned. Tons of time!