my shoulders ache, my feet are blistered, i smell like smoke and my ears are ringing...

... and yet a had a good night.

i didnt think i would... everyone knows eachother and are just there to either get drunk of get some. i wanted neither. eventually i was dragged onto the dance floor. the good music came on and at first i was kind of self conscious, i mean, there were very few people dancing and i wasnt sure what people would think of me. im not the dancing type, see? but then... i just got into it. and i didnt care. i didnt care if people were staring, if i was making an idiot of myself. i danced and danced and just went with the music. all the girls around me were doing their little "oh look, im sexy and easy" dance and just looked so desperate. no one seemed to be really just... having fun. so thats what i did. i had fun. i jumped, i swung my head around, waved my arms and just generally shook ma booty like a fool and lost myself in the strobe lights, colours and insanely loud music. eventuallly they stopped playing anything good and i could only ignore the fact that i was dancing to crap on a stick in music form for so long. so i stoppped. no one tried to dance with me, and thats fine. why the hell would i want some guy pawing all over me while im having fun? i dont know, personnally i was sweaty and gross, last thing i want is some horny guy touching me. (not that id want him touching me in the first place). anywho, i just wish i could go someplace a dance to stuff like... sweet home alabama and thriller and other such good dancing tunes all night. even some sort of techno would work better. if this is what a rave is like, then sign me up.