i think the time for my blog thingy is wrong so.... you know, dont rely on it.

since the last time i blogged (yes, all 2 hours ago) i had a breakthrough. revolutionary, really. i realised how great the people i have surrounded myself with are. just friends i have overlooked that really mean so much to me. they are the ones who make me happy when i'm sad, pick me up when life trips me (like i need help to fall over...) and all that other friendly stuff... it feels like i've been sitting in this room in the dark, with all the doors and windows shut. i've finally decided to open the doors, open the windows. let all of this stale air out and if it wont leave, i'll drag it out kicking and screaming. DONE. done with the old stuff that keeps coming back to bite me. i'm not going to sit around and make the same mistakes over and over again like i have for so long (or at least it feels that way). i know i'll regret it when all the familiar stale air is gone and all that's left is the cold draft, but right now i'm enjoying the freshness of it all.

right so tomorrowi have to somehow figure out how to open all these doors and windows.... knowing me, i might decide at the last minute to leave em' all shut...

talking in metaphors is fun. well, it is for me anyways. all you poor shmucks reading this must be having the time of your lives. unless you have cracked my code...

well in that case, good for you

~em