slow shmow...

it's funny... i sometimes think i dont do things people tell me too just because they told me to. i'm a stubborn person i guess.. but then again, i sometimes do things just to shut people up. and other times i do things because it's easier than putting up with what would happen if i didnt (which kinda falls into the category of shutting people up). so maybe i'd be better off if poeple just didnt tell me to do anything? i think i can make up my own mind, dont you? because if i dont, i'll never know why i made the decision, whether or not the reasons behind it were my own or ones people convinced me were true. it may take me longer to figure things out, but in the end, i usually make the right decision. it just takes longer. but who ever said everything had to be done fast? society! thats who! okay okay... no rants about society today...

all i'm saying is, it may LOOK like i'm not deciding anything, but really... i'm just thinking about it... really really hard... with varying results...

sigh....