get it?

sometimes ihave a convesation with someone and i realise i really want to talk about the topic of the conversation at greater lenghts in my blog. unfortunatly for this person, they have to read the same drivel twice. i'm sorry.

i feel like a fraud. i think i've said this before, but now i have reasons to it. i feel like people see me as something i'm not, not necessarily through their own fault, but it's not something i intnetionally do, if i'm to blame at all... i know, that made little sense. just for the record people, i'm not really all that smart and i hardly think i'm deep. i'm not really the caregiving type and although i may act. like it, i'm not all that strong willed. i'm not funny or outgoing. i'm not studious but niether am i a total slack off. i try, but not too hard. i'm not a perfect kid yet i'm also not a rebel. i'm not any of these things, so dont think i am. i'm not special, or different from anyone else. neither am i worse. i'm... just me. this is not being falsely modest or even self-defeating.... it's actually more of a warning or a disclaimer. kind of a "dont say i didnt warn you" type of deal for when you all get it, unless you already have.

i dont know. i've been saying that alot lately.... i know there must be something that sets me appart from everyone else, despite what i said above... i mean, we all have one. that something special. it doesnt need to be something real big, just... mostly unique.

whats bothering me? nothing.... yeah, nothing. this is not the passive aggresive me speaking, this is the serious one. i'm not depressed or upset over anything. i just... dont get some things, thats all...