my stomach is being stubborn....

so as it turns out, im not quite ready to log off yet, despite the fact that i could definitely use sleep. i really dont want to go to bed. i want to sleep, but i dont want to go to bed. everyone is busy. either doing what has to be done or talking to people they can relate to or doing something they enjoy. i have no one i can relate to and talk to. at least not here.... at least i dont think so... i supposed i could draw but it would probably be shit. (hey, no different from normal, right?). i must thank alex. at some point i was wavering on wether to drink some more or not and he convinced me not to. he was right. im just fine. the last thing i need is to be another one of those semi conscious puking drunk people that seem to pop up like magic at parties. ill just entertain myself on this nice little computer.

i wish i had my someone. you know what im talking about... that fictional someone who will just be there for me and who i WANT to be there for them. thats the trick. i need someone i care equally for. bleh. im just rambling now. no one cares about this, not even me.

earlier today we were talking about how annoying people were when they went on and on about how drunk they were and insisted on recounting just how much they had in fact consumed. tonight im trying to figure out if the one trying to convince you that they are, in fact not very drunk is more or less annoying. so far, id have to say more. or maybe its just the person and not necessarily the actions. but i cant say that, im suppose to be nice to him. someone told me this early on in the night, cant remember who... its been rather difficult since ... well... i dont know why.... im a mean person? meh... dont care anymore.


people sometimes annoy me, sometimes make me very happy. who knows anymore, who cares.



*NOTE* not responsible for anything i have writen in here tomorrow morning. i know i just wrote it but i already forget so... bleh to you.