yepp yepp...

killin time at school, as usual...

to keep with tradition, here is a list of things i SHOULD be doing:
studying for linear algebra (test tomorrow)
doing linear algebra (due friday)
doing my chem lab (due monday... unless we're talking about the two that were due weeks ago...)
Mechanics homework(due monday)
Mechanics lab (tuesday)
reading english story (plus finishing the one due on moday which i never finished)(friday)

... and i think that about sums it up. hmm... it seems ill be busy this weekend. doesnt help that it seems my weekend is already taken up by non homework related activities... im trying to think of WHEN ill get this all done and i keep getting a blank. im f-ing screwed. but i shall manage, because thats what i do, i manage.

anyways, ive had a not too bad past couple of days... okay, yesterday and today were ALL that bad. well asides from being sick, tests and impending homework, there hasnt been much wrong with them. which is cool. im looking forward to a few more good days... at least... even though ive totally jinxed it already... *nervously knocks on wood*

my lips feel like pulp. when i get sick i ant breathe in through my nose. which means air, and the oxygen needed to live, must find its way in elsewise. apparently ears do not make good breathing apperati, meaning i must resort to sleeping with my mouth open. i usually wake up with my mouth feeling like paper. honnestly, not a single drop of moisture. which means my lips get dry. i try to put lipsyl on, and at least they dont hurt, but they still get all peally and stuff... its anmoying because i cant help but chew on them. which only makes it worse but YOU try telling my nervous tick that...

my last volleyball practice is tonight. im not sure whether ill miss it... ill miss being able to have the release of hitting something as hard of possible once a week, but i dont think ill miss the 14 hour days at school (8-10), it gets a little tiring...

ive realised something about me and people... actually, i havent quite come to a conclusion about anything, it's just something ive thought about. people talk about how they are attached to people or to a group of people. i hear them moan about the possibility of spending a night alone, or taking a bus alone. or just having to go to the cafeteria alone. im not takl about one person in particular, everyone seems to need someone to be with to keep themselves interested or just to pass the time. if im going to be doing nothing, id rather do it alone. i cherish my busrides alone. its not to say that i hate them with other people, but as a general rule, they are much more relaxing when im alone. i dont worry about spending a spare alone. i used to(and still sorta do) wonder about this. does this mean i dont like the people around me? i dont think so... because i do enjoy my time with all my friends. i think its because im simply not a people person. i dont always need people. of course, EVERYONE needs someone sometimes. im no exception to that. there are some night where the thought of going home and doing nothing is unbearable. just like something i just need to tak with someone who'll listen.

dont take this the wrong way people, id be lost without my friends. in a very real way, i DO depend on people. i dont know how to explain it... i dont need people to get me through the day i guess...

shit, i have to be in class in 1 minute... gotta run...