*AWOOOOOOOGA*AWOOOOOOGA* <---sound of a submarine diving

im kind of tired

im glad im not doing anything tonight, im kind of physically crashing which is kind of dragging down my mental welfare with it. last night was fun and would have been much funner had i not been so tired. but hatman was fun and i thoroughly enjoyed the topic of conversation that arose after that. i think it was along the lines of "emily's easy!" (thanks vik, i owe you). oh wait, did i say enjoy? i meant DIDNT enjoy... hah... i always get the two confused...

but seriously, it was all in good fun. it takes more then that to ruffle MY feathers i tell ya! sigh... you know em's tired when she starts talking about her non-existent feathers.

i spent 50$ at chapters yesterday. instead of depressing me, this gross overspending comforted me. this is where im SUPPOSED to blow all my money. in a bookstore. its what i do, and gladdly at that. i started reading one of the books. its nothing special, just some cliche middle-age story about magic and kings to be overthrown and so on and so forth but what can i say, its my kind of book. some people spend loads of money on they're favorite types of movies, i do it on books. i know there is little literary value to the book and that most people would scorn or even laugh at my choice but ive been reading the book almost non-stop in my freetime since i've bought it and i love it. in the end, reading dickens is all fine and dandy (im still working my way through Oliver Twist...) but my true escape, the one i could spend days in, is my cheezy fantasy novels. and thats all there is to it.

some people are kind of tranparent. or at least they seem to be until you grossly missjudge them. i wonder if im transparent or if people can easily read what im feeling...

i feel really gross... i ate too much at cinnabon tonight than is healthy. this happens once and a while. i like working with jasmine. its not that she lets me get off with not working because she really doesnt, but i just feel more comforable around her. plus we get to catch up with eachother. if you had told me a couple years ago that jasmine would end up being one of my closest friends, i would have been slightly doubtful. not that i would have been unhappy, just that int he past my and lily always seemed to have more in common with ridding and her going into sciences in all. at least it seemed we have more to talk about. but now, i see jasmine more than probably anyther single person (including family and viki and all) what with work, soccer, family things and just hanging out. and to be honnest, this is really not a bad thing. ive really enjoyed getting to know her better and making her someone i can actually trust enough to confide in and hopefully having her be more open with me as well. and no jasmine, your ass ISNT big... you moron.... ;)



i think im over my more extreme phase of thirst for new people.. maybe because ive met a new person or two or im taking more time and getting to know people i knew, but not well, better. either way, for now im content. i wont go off saying im thrilled and throw a party but im content.

and for the moment, thats good enough for me.