emily and her smile.

its a familiar sight. no one is afraid of cancelling emily or upseting her because she usually takes i with a smile and says, no no, its okay, i understand. she can take jokes at her expense and usually wont flip out at you if you do something wrong. until she is pushed too far. once emily is sick of beign walked on and pushed around and told to do this, not this, wait! no this (which she would normally take with a shrug because she really doesnt mind, once she has had enough of all this and dealing with people's problems and their bickering between eachother and making sure no one is hurt and keeping up with all of your little arguments and issues with eachother then she does a peculiar little thing. those of you who have known me long enough have seen it before. see, i dont go off explosively, as much fun as that may be. its more of a internal thing that projects onto anyone trying to "help" me. or just anyone who irritates me in the slightest. if you keeep things absolutly neutral i can probably talk to you without kicking you in the proverbial crotch.

so, to sum it up, i am at the end of my tether. the end of my cycle. its like a glass. it slowly fills up over the course of months and when it reaches the top it needs to be emptied. so consider this my glass emptying. i like to consider it healthy.

like i mentioned in a few posts back, i probably am taking some sort of morbid pleasure in pissing everyone off because hell, i dont really get to do this all that often. because emily smiles.

and somewhere along the line i switched from third to first person... oh well...